cayleen if you are reading this thats great!

so cayleen is not interested in me! and though i shouldn't be surprised, i was instantly saddened after hearing the news. the text she sent provo's very own ashleigh brummer said:

"im flattered but i am very in love and happy with mike."

this saddened me more than i realized it would. and i know that she has dated someone for 3 years, and i have maybe talked to her for a max of two minutes, but i really hoped something to happen. i suppose that this might have been the case with anyone. i wanted someone to love, and i want someone to love so much it really does hurt. i am so happy for couples that work out, fun happy couples. it breaks my heart to see them so happy, but in a good way. i am also envious of these people. that even though they may fight and have heartaches as well, they have found what they are looking for and are content with looking no more.

nothing consoles the spirit of the downtrodden more than music! but even in these worst of times, music is powerless to the force of broken hearts and damaged souls.

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