sometimes i really don't know what to make of things. it's not as if i want to figure things out though. all in all life is pretty good. sometimes i wish for it to be more dramatic like it once was, but that is only sometimes.

i am taking an eternal marriage class right now at the Y academy. i am really not sure why i am taking it, being a little disenchanted with marriage in general. i do however enjoy learning skills and hearing stories that will help my everyday relationships with people.

this past monday we talked mainly of telling past sins (sins being things the church frowns upon) to those who we are in a relationships with. my professor, who i usually will find very practical and understanding, couldn't fathom why people even ask others about their past lives. this left me feeling a little uneasy, because for me personally i want to be the most open with the person i am going to marry, or with the person i am pursuing to marry, or with the person i am interested in the most at the time. i also want my daily interactions to a have a level of honesty to them. my professor's reasoning is that the pain which ensues isn't worth saying these sins, and while i understand that happens and has happened repeatedly to me, i still feel there is a certain importance in being able to share with loved ones information about our pasts. but how do we know when too much is too much? what is gray and what is black and white? is there even black and white these days? everything seems a lot grayer then ever before.

in kinsey, peter sarsgard's charcter says "sex is a risky game, because if you're not careful, it will cut you wide open." i think this could be used as a very broad statement about relationships. about how dangerous they can be. but we love them all cause we are all doggs! it's hard being a dogg.

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