the thing i want most is to feel understood. this does not necessarily mean when i speak i want people to understand me, though it does include that. it is more of that understood feeling i get when i am listening to the right song, or when i am watching the right movie. that feeling of everything making sense. i also get this feeling when i am laying with a girl, and we are feeling each other's touch while talking. in these moments everything makes sense and there is nothing in the world that can make you feel less. but these moments are fleeting. they give no lasting result. which is why i return to movies, music, and touch constantly. to fill the void. drugs and alcohol have the same impact. there is a reason people consistently are doing these things, because it allows them to feel better in those moments than in real moments. though i think real moments definately have an advantage, because they are real.

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