the thing about family is that no matter what, you will be hanging out with them in 30 years. with friends, it is possible (and more than likely) that in 30 years you will not be hanging out with them at all. but family is there through thick and thin, through ups and downs, through good times and bad. when i start a family, i want to creat an atmosphere and environment of understanding and love. i want to be able to have my kids tell me anything thats on their minds. i want to be able to have open discussion with my wife about EVERYTHING. i would wish that if turned gay or if she turned lesbian, that we would tell each other and while it would be the worst thing ever, we would be able to talk to each other about it, be open. i seriously hope my wife doesn't turn lesbian. i am almost 99 percent sure i will not turn gay. i know these are extreme examples, but i hope the point is understood that i want relationships of trust and love. that in them we will help each other through the worst times but also the best. this is getting me so excited for a family! i have never been excited to have a family before. it just didn't seem fun and enticing. but thinking about creating something and bringing it truths and love is something that i long for so much right now.

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