sometimes i try to think of what i want to do with my life. i think "i should not be in school. i am not focused in it, so why should i be in it? i could be do doing other things that would be better." i then think i am a failure, since i cannot focus in it. people don't want someone who can't focus. people want people who are motivated. they want people who can be there for them in need, who can help them when they are down. sometimes i can give this. other times i cannot. and those times when i cannot leave me feeling empty and hopeless. and in those times there is nothing i can do, besides lay in bed and think.

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