my heart my heart
2005-10-23, 7:48 p.m.

i am not a huge fan of bright eyes. he is pretty hit and miss with me. some of the songs he writes i think are amazing. others are just okay. one song of his, lua (which was number one on the billboards when it came out, interestingly enough), is one of those songs that are really great. every line in it really moves me. usually there are some lines in songs that are more stand out than others. but in lua every line helps convey this certain feeling that allows me to lose myself in it. it is very unique, i think, when there is a song that is able to do that. i know songs affect people differently, and that this song is not got going to do that for every person that listens to it. some people will be more affected but other songs, such as sweet child of mine by guns of roses (i know of one person who is greatly affected by this song). there is, however, one line in the song that i am thinking of now that i would like to mention. the line is "what was simple in the moonlight by the morning never is." how often do i wish for the night, for that time when the only thing i have to worry about is the sleep that is coming on. things are so much simpler then. i think there is a variety of reasons that make it like that, none of which i really feel like writing about right now. but what's so easy in the evening by the morning never is.

in my eternal marriage forever class i have learned that not being able to communicate is not the real issue at the heart of most problems in relationships. i use to think that it was. but communication is not the problem. the real problem is that we are scared to risk our innermost desires with someone we love, to potentially have those desires be riduculed and criticized by the very same people we want them to be accepted by. so instead of sharing those feelings with them, we move back to a more superficial level, where it is less painful and risky to talk about issues. but at this level no real emotions or positive feelings are created, and those involved are left without true, deep love.

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